let's start living

I went to the Dr. last Friday and he gave me the good news that the CT scan had no changes and I am clear. It is unbelieveable how not knowing for sure can be so upsetting. Anyway, he said that with my Hodgkins, I am a very low risk of it coming back. That I had never heard before and it made me so comfortable.

So now I have some living to do. I was quite overwhelmed last year around this time just getting ready for a wedding, so I didn't have time to really look at my life and make some changes. Joe and I have started a change of life program. We are starting to eat well and now that the weather is getting better, we want to start an outdoor exercise program. Walking...gardening...etc. Being locked up in this house all winter is getting it's toll on me. (although, i have done some major cleanout). If we can get a good year of doing this it should become a habit and keep us healthy.

Hello sunshine....I am going to enjoy the day today.

anxiety

I am a little anxious about my visit tomorrow with the Dr. I had a CT scan last friday and I am praying that when we see him he will have that little boy smile on his face and say ok, see you next year. It is so strange, I don't want to go through all of that again. There is a young man in California that is going through his second round of Hodgkins and is doing some sort of stem cell therapy. His name is Ben, so I have been keeping him in my thoughts and prayers. Anyway, that makes me a little anxious. I don't know. Another big worry is my children. I don't want them to have to go through this again. It hurts them as much as me. I don't like seeing my chidren hurting.
Ok, I am going to have good thoughts and trust in the Lord. I know He will be there with me no matter what.
I will be back tomorrow...have a great day.